(photo of the August full moon courtesy of Henrik Hylland Uhlving)
Day 12 – It is no accident I had these insecurities during the full moon. Sorry, not sorry, for being witchy and new age and out there.
I googled the full moon and learned this:
“In fact during full moon, everything will be magnified, good and bad. Therefore full moon can be both viewed as a time of crisis as well as a time of opportunity. It depends on our overall state and activity during the full moon day to cultivate its positive or negative effects.” (A Time of Opportunity, pranaworld.net)
Here’s an example. I felt like crying. It was interrupting my attempt to meditate. I thought, should I call my mom and cry on the phone and complain and wallow? That would feel good. And there is a time and place for catharsis, certainly, but then I thought, then I’ll be immersed in that feeling and I don’t actually want to be. I want to acknowledge it and then find a way out from the inside of it.
Hoping for what you want and getting it are like the planets lining up. It happens only for one brief second before what you wanted and what really is, slip past each other. The act also reminds me of a kiss. It cannot last forever and the next moment will be entirely its own unpredictable thing.
From space.com’s 2 minute video about August’s full moon, I learned, “There is only one infinitely short instant when the moon is truly full.”
How rare and perfect and delightful.
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